I think this was maybe published in Streetnewz second to last paper?
“We had that big drug users gathering, and then its same old same old, back to survive, deaths, arrest’s, sickness…rig dig team gone…we are spread out like fuck, I don’t know…its depressing as hell…I don’t know man?
hothead: I hear ya.
“How are we supposed to be “building community” when we are run around by police, we’re trying to eat and just survive?”
hothead: Share and watch each others back.
“There are no homes! Why do they punish people for making our own?” (This was in regards to folks who are camping outside.)
hothead: Because of the colonial divide and rule system we are all skkkooled in, taught in, raised in, policed in, all of us.
“We’re always dealing with so many new faces, and it’s hard to pass on old school when folks are red zoned constantly, its fucking nuts.”
hothead: Your right. We need: a supported VICDUU, a safe consumption site, heath care for all, homes for all, CopWatch and it seems the only ones gonna lead ourselves out of oppressive colonial state is us. Old skool buddy systems; help each other, communicate re: power and equity best we can, our voice will grow as we unite.
“Why aren’t more housed people freaking out? Its all coming to them too, don’t they know that? How are we supposed to live or pay rent on what we all get, we can’t get help unless our files are taken over? And eat at Our Place with the cops? WTF?”
hothead: Privilege’s handed out by corporate and government interests keep us separate and enslaved to oppressive system, vicious cycle only we can stop.
“Why can’t people understand that there are many what do you call it? Mixed race people? Lots of those relationship’s and families…we are fucked every where we go, we have that in common, we form families.”
hothead: Colonial Imperialism is taught in skools to all of us. It breeds ignorance, hatred and is taught thru media and schools. Stigma’s are reinforced daily, its a constant battle and our only ammunition is educating ourselves with De Colinisation and Anti Oppression training.
“Why would we (highly drug involved) get interviewed (for Belfry homeless project)? Why bother? People don’t want to know why we are in and out of jail? They don’t want to know why folks steal shit. Why do you think we weren’t there at opening night? No rest for the wicked eh?”
hothead: You answered your own question.
“Ah, your full of shit, do you really believe this is gonna make a difference? These people don’t care, look at them? Why bother? Been there, done that, what difference did it make?”
(in response to my inviting them up to another ctehv meeting)
hothead: Even though it can feel hopeless, it is not, two lie’s colonialism teaches and reinforces: that we cannot make a difference, and we can only hope.
We have and still can make a difference, we just need community. Kapitalism taught us to expect immediate results: this is a lie. We move forward, we are emotionally a mess and we need to know its better we work and struggle for change than suffer under enslavement to greed. We can at least work for our children’s futures, even if we ourselves cannot experience it now.
Prisoners Justice Day outside Our Place:
“Where were you when I was inside eh? Where are you people when we are inside, who the fuck are you? You ever do time? You people don’t give a shit, fuck off!”
(I stood and listened, Silly stepped in and helped deal with a righteously angry brother.)
“Who is a political prisoner?”
hothead: I invited a local Leonard Peltier
advocate to PJD, when he got up to speak, a group of five or six old skool first nations folks I hecka respect walked away, gave us every non verbal communication stating loudly “fuck you”. I would learn that many first nations who are punished by the colonial state daily, within their own occupied territories, feel judged, notice who is NOT fighting for them, the judgment upon them as they are not seen as the political prisoners they are when in and out of jail due to criminalization of our first nations people’s by the colonial occupying state!
“Why are violent repeat sex offenders left to their own devices, ignored by kops? Why?”
hothead: Divide and rule create rat systems. Police are also directed to be busy with drug and alcohol involved cases, its bad leadership basically. We need to Unite.
We could unite to end unnecessary violence by holding power trippers accountable and get help to do so! We could.
Some could go to pipeline defender camps and those who cannot stay in cities and demand housing and a guaranteed livable income now!
We won’t leave till demands are met, period.
I am 52, I have been in community living since sobriety in my early 20’s. I can honestly say we are fckd. I have joined an active Social Housing Now BC Group: also joined a social justice spiritual community, the First Unitarian Universalist congregation. That is just how bad it truly is. Our front line communities need help, need continuity. We are scattered like sand in a windstorm. We are either 9-5 workers who have a tight inner circle impenetrable by others and can be seen at meetings, protests, workshops and rally’s and / or: others who are in this 24 7, learning thru desperation why unity is critical, honesty a must and healthy boundaries and allies to reinforce them necessary. Those of us who have no blood ties, no blood family close by and some no contact at all with blood family, you say make your own community. You just “help” and go away constantly. In older pagan and first nations communities’ folks were cared for or sent out, at least a decision was made, folks acknowledged.
We have many single moms who struggle and have to deal with restraining orders, colonial PATRIARCHAL BS basically, it breaks up communities when men are left and not held accountable while men go home and avoid, stay safe, not really an ally.
We learn and move forward, that is what we do.
Folks are left behind all the time, many are disassociated so badly that, over time their social skills falter more and more as social space is so unhealthy. Where is the resistance to this avoidance of kkkonflicts? The solidarity we need to see is a slow train coming friends, but as each of us gets educated more and more around facts of the need of de colinisation and an education about reality security culture and why we need our own, we grow and unite.
No continuity in sight except that which we offer. We have needed a Cop Watch for years and no plans in site. Most students and housed come and go and we are left standing in a community that has more funerals than I can express here. We are in a war zone 24 7 and there is no rest. Many like me have no stable housing for so long our emotional states are stressed over the max.
I succumbed to this vision to keep me going: I knew I would do more outreach as I got more disabled. That sadly is not the case. I envisioned living in a winterized camper home with a bike attachment of some sort for day-to-day outreach, as my daughter goes out into the world more, I will as well. I still have 8 years to find that healthy home on wheels, lots of time. I need a plan because neither the government nor general society has a plan. Nothing in site but cutting social housing, coops ending, community living under attack, farms under attack, Safe Consumption Sites under attack, …, …, !
As long as I have a dream and a vision I do not get lost in this systemic depression.
Here and there is the middle class doing what they can for a future. Trying desperately to save air, water, trees and land, money, vacation time, education for children, get all the bills paid, the list goes on, they are one busy managerial group working away on behalf of colonial divide and rule class system while trying to end unhealthy system:. The working class are also feeding into a system with little to no fight back when under attack by corporate and governmental destructive policy’s, carrots are dangled to each generation in order to keep destructive system going. This colonial attack affects us all generationally. Just look at Albert Gerow, Phil Fontaine and many other First Nations lining up with many ignorant non-natives for destructive jobs. They are all lost to arrogant greed, not listening to all of their people. In every community we must ask ourselves how are we fighting for what is important? How will we make a difference for poor and disenfranchised in all of our communities?
There is not much more for me to say. I have let friends and family know I am going to help stop the pipelines and support First Nations defenders.
I would like a family focused course on defending pipelines and what to expect.
Prayers to all my ancestors and all my relations for strength and safety to all defenders their families and communities. Squatter’s peace. Prisoner’s rights: safety and freedom for all political prisoners including all drug and alcohol non-violent crimes.